I Want to Be a Stay at Home Mom

I Want to Be a Stay at Home Mom

The struggle is real moms. I went to college, had a career, but really I want to be a stay at home mom. 

But even though in my heart I knew I want to be a stay at home mom, I resisted. Being called “just” a mom is offensive as hell.

Any mother knows that this is the toughest job in the world. I’ve worked outside of the home, from home, and have also not worked at all (if you can call being a stay at home mom not working). I would always been quick to call out someone who puts down stay at home moms, but really the one I needed to call out was myself.

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Deciding to be a stay at home mom is a huge shift in identity. 

I’m a feminist, college-educated, and have an IQ a little above the cutoff for genius.

I’ve worked at huge organizations and national television networks. I’ve studied abroad in two countries.

I believe in equal pay. I want to be an example of what a woman can achieve for my daughter. I’ve built my own businesses. Yet, something has not felt right in my heart and soul for a long time.

Today it dawned on me, despite wanting to fit the mold of a modern mom and woman, my soul is screaming for something else right now.

To be “just a mom.”

I have resisted. I have fought it. I have pretended my whole world and place in the world didn’t shift the moment I first got pregnant. And it made me miserable.

I thought because I am intelligent, have an excellent (and expensive) education, and have an aptitude for many types of work that I must work. I must have a career outside the home.

I said I’m a feminist, but feminism failed me here.

I internalized all of my beloved ideas of girl power and equality as messages about how my worth is dependent on my ability to climb ladders, smash glass ceilings and make money.

But my worth is dependent on nothing.

I am enough and worthy whether I become president of the United States or never work another day in my life. (Though we know that when it comes to working, there’s no job tougher than that of mother.)

Today I realized that (at least for now) I want to be “just a mom.”

Sure I’ll have hobbies, I’ll have a blog, I’ll write, but I want my priority and job to be that of mom.

Not because I have to. Not because it’s my “place” as a woman, but because it’s the place I am choosing because it is what my heart wants and needs.

And I also appreciate the privilege I have in being able to make this choice. Many moms must work or must stay at home because of life circumstances.

But perhaps the glass ceiling I am smashing now is the ceiling on the box I’ve created for myself. The box of what a mother should be. The box of what a woman should be. The box of shame, self-doubt, guilt, and unaligned expectations.

I thought if I just get the next promotion, sign the next big client, hit revenue goals, that I would finally feel free.

But as surely as 1950’s housewives may have felt trapped by their role, I was in reality, just as trapped in this modern role of woman and mother.

I’ve always been radical. The black sheep. The psychedelic sheep. So I’m practicing radical motherhood. I’m throwing my entire soul into being a mom.

Being “just a mom.” Because it is my choice, and what my heart is calling me to do.

At the end of the day I had to follow the quiet dream I’ve had forever. I want to be a stay at home mom. To be just a mom.

 

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  1. Katie Owles

    You won’t regret it.

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  2. Ashleigh

    I cried so much reading this, I’ve been feeling so guilty because I’m giving up such a fantastic career, I’ve been beating myself up for not “doing my share” for the household income, but this is where I want to be, motherhood is what I need to dedicate my life to right now, I can always go back to work when he starts school. Reading this made me realise that I need to give myself permission to not be all things and ‘just’ focus on being a mom. Thank you

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    • morganbattista

      <3 Hugs mama. I was ironically thinking about this a ton today too. I was sewing a dress for my daughter the other night, just repairing a hole, nothing fancy, and I realized there was nothing I would rather be doing. It's not glamorous, but it is what I actually love!

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